Every now and then when I let myself sit, you know just be in the quiet, I realize things about myself as I reflect. As my journey in life progresses there are actually things that I am getting better at doing... We all have life patterns if we would recognize them. I have said it before, one of my life patterns or purposes is always to move a group of people in a direction. I cannot make them move, I cannot speak enough to change minds, however by who I am as leader direction changes. That does not mean it is permanent. What others do after I exit is up to them whether direction stays the same. I do not take groups of people to the promise land though I used to suffer trying, but that is not my role in life. My role/pattern is to stand at the Red Sea and say, "Come on let's walk through it." And then just like that, you get to start a wilderness experience; Wondering why in the world did we ever walk through that Sea?
I am at that place again in life. We have walked through the Red Sea found some Wilderness and now it is time for me to exit. I am not suppose to go to the promise land. How do I know? When there are multiple groups of people waiting on me to hold up a staff, I know it is time to leave the ones I have already walked with through the sea. I have taken pride in being the President of our local youth football league, made some changes, been in a position to love on kids and tried to put them first. But it is time for me to exit. I am not sure of the promise land for it, but my time is up. Last year, before I even realized it other things were starting to evolve and fall into place of where I need and should be. I will say the hardest part is I cannot be all things to all people at the same time, because I so love youth sports. But I will tell it isn't what it use to be.
Youth sports have become a catch all for participation trophies, and community belonging. Those things are not bad, however it has cost us. No longer are coaches allowed to coach. You cannot push a kid because someone gets upset, because they do not like your tone. No longer are volunteers valued, however they are slaughtered by words of negativity, though those doing the slaughtering are not willing to take time to volunteer themselves. I was told this year by someone when I was going through a hard time with youth sports... "I got out of youth sports, because I was tired of destroying and losing friendships over it." I now get it. People do not like to hear, "Your child does not have the ability or even the desire to play." However on the flip side, "It is also painful for parents to watch their child not get a chance." I have experienced both sides. Personally, this year I sacrificed my own child's success to not let 12 other families down with having a team. As a parent it has been very hard, but as a President it was the right decision. I am not willing to make those calls anymore.
The seasons once again are changing in my life. Sometimes, I often feel like I am in a Where's Waldo book. Next week I will pop-up on a basketball court. Which I am excited about, and it also seems to be a season to make family memories as much as possible. Seasonal change sometimes is like breathing fresh air. I use to fight against it, but I am learning to embrace the need for things to die in-order for there to be new growth.
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